"I saw you screaming and no one can hear. You almost feel ashamed that someone could be that important that without them, you feel like nothing. No one will ever understand how much it hurts. You feel hopeless, like nothing can save you. Then when it’s over, and it’s gone, you almost wish you could have all that bad stuff back, so that you could have the good "-We Found Love
The other night I was watching the film Love and Other Drugs and sort of disappointed that it was not as in depth as I thought. However, the overall synopsis is that Ann Hathaway's character, who is suffering from Parkinson's Disease, desperately runs from love and her "fuck" interest Jake Gyllenhaal is a pharmaceutical drug representative; that selfishly doesn't know how to love. They go thru a course of a tumultuous love affair, but eventually are brought to a realization of unconditional "Love."and their "need" for each other after they break-up.
After the movie went off, I immediately thought about Rihanna's We Found Love video. As art often imitates reality,it's clear that the vid depicts the rise and fall of her and Chris Brown's once high-profiled relationship. Rihanna described the video as an analogy to the parallels of love and drugs. In essence- the euphoric feeling that love can create once induced, but when that jones comes down it's no longer beautiful..it's dark and ugly.Painful and desperate.Unhealthy. Yet, the original state of love is yearned for after the roller coaster ride has taken it's last dip and halt.
Love is a Drug.
It is said that God is love and ironically it is said that drugs make you feel closer to God.We are looking for god in our love(rs). We look for their human presence/time/energy/ love to take us to the highest unseen plane time-and time again till it exhausts or rejuvenates us .But just as God,love appears to be destructive as well as peaceful,it can become vice versus within the light and dark.So... for that we can't help but get lost or found when we continue searching for the intensity of it's essence.I'm still searching for God....